I'm alive :)

Hi dear readers, have you missed me?

I'm sorry for all this waiting, my life is a mess x3 but who's isn't?

So, my style has been changing quite a bit.... a lot of things happened and I bought so many stuff ^^ Gonna post a haul video or post tomorrow or someday I feel like it, it's really hot in here so I badly want to move out of my bedroom....

I've decided to apply for Asian Studies next year. Am finally going to do something that I like. Of course I'm a bit scared of everything, because it's all new and I have to learn everything from the very start but I'll work hard to make it ^^

I am also re-decorating my bedroom... I haven't made many progresses so far, but I'm also renewing some furniture items, that's why it is taking so long.

I say goodbye with a new pic of me ^^

(presenting some new clothing items and my new galaxy SIII mini *-*)

Thanks for waiting <3 p="">
Strange Saint

My circle lenses have arrived :)

Hi candies :3

I'm really happy, because my circle lenses arrived yesterday *-* I ordered them at kpoptown.com  and they took about a week to get here. They cost 15€ and they last for a whole year. Here you have some pics:

You can see quite a difference they make to my eyes.... bigger... even bigger than what they really are xD

 

My color is Pink - Misty Night. Most likely I'm gonna order some of these in blue soon :3
And also, they came with an extra 1 day pair of black circle lenses ^^ I'm gonna use them on a really special occasion.

And I also bought some pretty amazing stuff last week at Tally.

Finally a SAINT shirt ^^ I removed the sleeve of the shirt and made it tank top xD I'll show you later, I haven't taken pictures with that yet ._. but yeah, both of the shirts are really good and comfy. Next I'm gonna try to buy something more romantic ^^ and a corset xD

Circle lenses and Demonias

Hi everyone :3

I came here to tell you that I ordered my circle lenses today *-* they must get here before anicomics *-* (if anyone who reads this will be there, say something please :3 )

They're just simple pink circle lenses, as soon as I get them, I'll make a review or something, and of course, I'll leave the link then.

Another good thing is that I already bought my so wanted Demonia sprites 01 in black and white, last friday, as I said in the last post.

I don't have any picture with them yet, but I'll post something soon.

And basically, that's it ^^ am also working on some creepy cute secret projects :P so, see you soon *-*

http://sora-candy-skelleton.tumblr.com/  (creepy cute, pastel goth, anime and kawaii tumblr ^^)

News :)

Hi everyone! It's been awhile since I wrote... many things have happened..

Well, I've had many many school works to do, have been spending as much time as I can with my boyfriend, last weekend I went to Iberanime LX 2013 and my style has been constantly changing 0.0

About my style, am trying again a strange mix of goth, pastel goth, anime doll and ero lolita... never mind, I don't think I'll ever make to perfection...

I cut my hair about two weeks ago or something... and it's looking a lot like Bill Kaulitz in 2006 *-*

About IA 2013, well, I spent most of it working to be able to be together with my boyfriend, so I haven't seen much of it... but have seen enough to get some inspiration to my style *-* I hope I'll buy some cute shoes next friday with a new friend of mine, that I also me there... We have a lot in common and I'm liking him a lot :)

When it comes to college, I better not say anything at all T-T

  

Am starting to look for a summer job, so I can earn money enough to order my demonias *-* and am starting to have my own crafting project... I will upload videos as soon as I get something done :)

 Thanks for reading this

Love you all

Sora

(p.s. - follow my creepy cute tumblr: sora-candy-skelleton.tumblr.com )

Hi guys ^^

(am laughing my ass out of Gore, 'cuz she put a big pic of Bill Kaulitz as wallpaper of one of the computers in College)

  

And suddenly this came out:

Published on

I'm sick of everything!!!

Hi guys!!!
Thanks you so much for being patient and what for me to write something...

I don't know if you saw my youtube video, but if you haven't you can't watch it anymore... I removed the video... I'm starting over!

I want to improve for everyone: for you and also for myself! I'm feeling so so disappointed at myself...

But anyway... I'm improving, and I'll film more videos as soon as I get where I want u.u And trust me, I will u.u

I'll be writing soon *w*

Facts about me (updated 2013)

Hi dear followers. This post is a review of an elder one I made almost a year ago. You can totally tell why I’m doing this… I mean, I have changed so much lately --“Anyway, here goes 20 facts about me:

1.                  I hate my natural hair color (dark brown) and so far I’ve only dyed it black. I’m looking forward to dye it in purple or white one day *w* My hairstyle isn’t that bad now. I’m really happy with the way it looks.

2.                  What I want the most is not a cat, as I said before but to achieve the look I want. It’s not the fact that I’m afraid of anything, I’m just not rich –‘’

3.                  I’m always nice to everyone, and I don’t really understand why I shouldn’t or why people shouldn’t like me because my personality is really outstanding and my friends usually say that I get everyone’s attention.

4.                  I still hate to see people suffer: I see no need to make anyone unhappy by saying mean things or to see someone getting hurt and wasting their lives waiting for a dream to come true when we’re actually all real and we have to try

5.                  I'm anti-bullying, because since 6th grade I suffer from it and it hasn't been like living on heaven. It brought me many challenges and I lost most of my friends because of this (this sentence I kept, because it is still true)

6.                  I'm too selective when it comes to friendship and love relationships. Sometimes I can be really mean because I do not like the way someone reacts, but I don’t hate anyone, just don’t go out with him/her

7.                  I love Japan and most … no! I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT JAPAN! Since the language, the culture, fashion, lifestyle and music. Everything there is perfect *w* and men are just gorgeous!

8.                  Truth to be said, I have Asian ascendency , that’s why my skin is slightly darker, with golden shades (which I hate --´´)

9.                  I wouldn’t say these days that my mother ruined my childhood by breaking that cat with the drums… she basically ruins my entire life! Don’t take it personally, but my mum is a really tough one, really hard to stand with.

10.               A really funny fact since last year  is that I didn’t really felt like standing out to much, so basically I wore lot’s of regular shopping clothing… Nowadays I don’t really like to shop there, I always go to Androm or order things from Ekstra, because the trend now is to be slightly inclined towards alternative fashion, but with a lot more mixture, and I don’t really feel like loosing my originality by having those overdone clothes we have on shops. They really bother me – it’s almost like a fake channel bag!

11.               Black Veil Brides songs still reflect my inner being and with the new album, I feel like the gap is getting even smaller. We’re now also sharing that fighter spirit.

12.               I label myself a goth so I don’t really have any problems with labels now. I used to have because my mum and ex-boyfriend didn’t really like that at all, they still say it’s a childish thing but I only feel like I’m belonging somewhere else, somewhere I’m accepted!

13.               I feel a deep hole on my heart by knowing that I won’t probably find anyone just like me. It’s that feeling as if you were all alone at some point. It’s weird….

14.               I used to say that having tattoos was a really important goal to achieve, but it doesn’t seem like that to me anymore. My goal today is to keep me where I am for some time…

15.               Since I started to date my boyfriend I tend to be more emotional. Before that I was heartless and broken - > just for you to know…

16.               People staring at me doesn’t really bother me. In fact it bothers me more if they don’t look… Strange! Or better – I’M USED TO HAVE EVERYONE STARING AT ME, better now xD

17.               People may think that my bias are goth/ metalhead guys… when in fact, my bias are Visual Kei guys *w* Goths and metalheads sometimes don’t like me, or most of the times scare me. I have this preference for skinny tall guys with pretty hair and pretty faces *w*

18.               I’m trying to get a collection of platform shoes, such as platform boots, demonias, creepers, platform mary janes… I’m still starting though

19.               My favorite color: BLACK… but I also like purple. (I never thought I’d end up liking only black and purple but I guess there’s no way around so…I’m a black widow –“)

20.               Last fact: I spent almost a month writing this because I didn’t know how to update a piece of writing I made with my elder facts… Those were mine, and so are these.

(me and Hannakelly Gore)

It has been a MONTH!!!

Hi dear readers...

So... yeah... it has been almost a month since I published something...

First, I have to apologize to everyone! It has been a really tough month for me, it brought me so many changes and challenges you can never imagine...

So, not saying too much about my personal love life, it has been a hell of a crap that's turning slowly into a good thing.
Let's wait to see :P

About my style... I had this secret project of being scene goth... and somehow it turned my head upside down and basically I totally forgot who I was in between... I had to make a introspection to realize what I really wanted! So, I came back to the way I was ^^
 
I'm waiting to have my hair black again so I can make a video... --'' (yeah... I know it has been forever since I uploaded those videos... but... the ones I recorded didn't have anything to do with ME... they're like my best friend so... yup better not upload anything to upload something that to myself looks fake.
  

I hope you keep following me, 

I love you all

SORA SAINT

Get ready youtube - I have new videos

So today, after a great day yesterday, I went to Gore's place.
(I'll let you know everything that happened yesterday, tomorrow morning)

Before letting you know what happened at Gore's, I'll tell you how my day started: with a troublesome storm! Well, this morning was a really rainy and windy one. I almost felt like it was a hurricane! I can't imagine how a hurricane really is 0.0 I only know that I barely slept last night with all the noises from wind making everything break and move outside. Fortunately nothing important broke.

Then I did everything regularly, like always having breakfast, cleaning the room, taking a bath, dress up my new clothes (related with tomorrow's post), do my hair and make up...

And I started watching this new anime Togainu no chi. It's about a division of Japan during the 3rd WW, in which Tokyo was taken and renamed Toshima. The maine character, named Akira (and basically this name was the cause why I started watching it. Reita-san's real name's also Akira) is a sort of a professional figther who was accused of a murder (he didn't kill anyone though), so this woman appears and proposes him to go to Toshima and get some tags to enter a certain championship to tear down a chemical industry. When Akira gets there he finds these guys who try to kill him (yup first thing you see is guys trying to kill you).  Then appears this gorgeous guy, dressed in a full leather outfit with a long leather jacket, you know those kinda guys a girl would drop dead instantly... He saves him, slaying the guys with a sword (that kinda makes him even more attractive. I love men with swords *w* ). And basically this is all I can tell you because I haven't seen further episodes, only the first one.

Why I started watching it? Because I finished watching Ao no Exorcist and since I'm on school break now, I have tons of free time to waste xD

Moving on...  I went to Gore's place and we ended up making a lot of stuff:
1. First we chatted about our diaries, and clothing stuff
2.We decided we should record a video
3.We baked a cake
4.I helped Gore with her hairstyle
5.We recorded a video about fashion
6.We recorded a video dancing to Jeffree Star's "Beauty Killer" and her mum came into the room in the middle of the video xDD
7.We recorded a video dancing Death To Your Heart, by BOTDF
8. We watched Adventure Time (I don't really watch it, but Gore and her sister were so did I ^^ it didn't kill me)
9.We watched freaky videos on youtube
10.I had dinner there

Then I left.

So I did quite a few thigs today :) I'm only not certain about the dance videos, because you know how I am: more a serious person, but I also have this funny kid side so... 
The choices of the musics were made by Gore. She's more into that kinda stuff. I wanted to dance Kakusei no Heroism (An Cafe) but she said she didn't feel like dancing it...

So, yeah I guess it was all I did today xD

I'll upload the videos as soons as I have them ready.

XOXO

SORA SAINT

I have awesome news

Hi dear readers,

I'm so sorry. I'm probably letting you down again because I really haven't post anything lately. I have been studying for my German exam...

So, I haven't gone shopping for awhile and since I found that there was a shop selling these amazing cheap velvet leggins I went there, took advantage of the situation and ate at the japanese restaurant as well ehehe xD

But, probably those aren't the best things in the world and NOT WHAT I CAME HERE TO TELL YOU.
Hummm... Well, you are all familiar with Escape The Fate, right? You all know their ex-bassist Max Green, right? Well... three days ago I received this notification telling me that he subscribed my activities on facebook (and that's the real Max, not a roleplayer)...

The thing is: I'M TOO SHY TO GO TALK TO HIM!!! I'm afraid that for some reason he doesn't like me or anything...

What do you think I should do? please let me know, I'm restless...

XOXO

Your,

SORA SAINT

Road to ... my first Youtube video :P

Hi dear followers ^^

I'm so happy! I've just recorded my first youtube video! well two actually: one in English and the other in portuguese.

I still have to edit them so... it will take me like two or three days til I post it on youtube.

This is just a picture of me. That's the outfit I'm wearing today ^^

So hmmm... now I have a lot to do xD

Stay Strong!

XOXO

SORA SAINT

My creepers have just arrived *w*

Hi everyone!

As you can read from my title, I'm really excited because my creepers finally got here *w*

They're so pretty *W* aren't they? I'm really really happy :D And I'm really surprised they arrived so fast, because they've only sent it yesterday. It came on a box with an Ekstra sticker and a rubber bracelet in it. (I love the fact they sent the pink one <3 p="p">

So, today I went to the sales opening at my local mall with my cousin and bought a simple black tank top with lace, no big deal really. There wasn't anything worth spending my money. 

And I finally cut my bangs, they were getting extremely long and I couldn't make that hairstyle I did in the beginning. Maybe I'll upload a video on this stuff .. dunno yet cause the next two days are already scheduled with my family, but I'll do everything I can :)

Here is a picture of me:

XOXO

SORA SAINT

ZOMBIE

Hi my dearest readers :)

I haven't really post anything lately :( I'm so sorry about that !!!

How was X-mas for you? Well, my X-mas day was quite agreeable and I had really good gifts this year, mostly money to spend at Androm (where I'm going next Saturday with Gore (HannakellyGore, for the ones who don't know - she's my bestfriend). I'll make an Haul Video (yeah my first youtube video *.*) next Sunday to show what I got :P

For now I'll show you my gift to myself: a ZOMBIE necklace I was dying to buy for so long:

I bought this at Claire's and it costed about 6€ and it's drop dead perfect *.*

I'll be updating some new the next days because I don't really have anything to do now xD

By the way, my new creepers must arrive next Monday. I bought them at ekstra.pt, click here to see them. I love them to DEATH!!!! The only thing I feel missing is a matching nail polish (which reminds me I have to decorate my nail polish's box). I have to think carefully about that xD

I'll post later :)

XOXO

SORA SAINT

Today Hannakellygore isn't coming to have lunch with me T.T

Does someone want to...? *w*

 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'm so bored!!! Really, even thinking that classes are almost over doesn't make me feel any better. I know I'll want to go out but I won't have any one to go out with me or something like that T.T

 

Yes I don't have anything else better to say --'' just that I'm extremely bored. And that I have an ask.fm account: http://ask.fm/sorasaint

 

Go there and ask me something please *W*

 

Love you all

 

XOXO

 

SORA SAINT

NEWS *W*

Today I feel sexy xDDD

Well that's because I've been listening to Jefree Star's song "Beauty Killer"... Really, I don't know why I like his musics. It doesn't have anything to do with my personal music taste but I can't help it xDD

So yeah, today my exams' season ended. I'm really happy and also relieved because I don't have anything else to memorize!

Another thing that also made me really happy was that I found that YOIN (by the GazettE) was composed by Aoi-san *w* and it's like: MY FAVORITE DIVISION'S SONG EVEEER!! (and also that Leader-sama composed KAGO NO SANAGI <3>

I'm happy to know that these other members (specially Aoi-san) are making my favorite songs now ^^ It's not that I don't like Ruki-san's songs, it's just that all my old favorite songs were composed by him and now it feels like there is a new air to breathe.

And for last, I'm about to get into Vacations from 19th December til 13th February *w* I'm so lucky guys! I'll have so much free time to record videos and take photos... or just go out with my friends. I'm really really happy ^^

Also, I have the feeling that this X-mas, even with less gifts and stuff, it's definitively going to be better or... more awesome!!! <3 font="font">
  
As soon as I have news I'll post. hope you guys like me *0* (and listen to DIVISION's songs as well) 

XOXO

SORA SAINT 

Ask me questions

Hi!!!
I was trying to study today... but I can't --''
Am not focused enough :(

So I was wondering what you may want to know about me ... Feel free to ask me anything really!
If you want a post about my wardrobe or my shoe collection or bags... cds... anything, just ask for it ^^

About the video I spoke about the other day, well... It's difficult. Hannakelly said that it was too "calm" and that we should make something funnier... so, 25 minutes of video worth for nothing!

This Christmas vacations I should be free enough to record something on my own (I hope), so wait for it ^^

And please, le me know anything I can do for you :) 

XOXO

SORA SAINT

(if you don't have an account, ask me through facebook or tumblr)

Social Networks update

Hiiiiiiiiiiii!
I know I've already started to miss my promise to post almost everyday... I have so many works I don't even want to think of them --''
So, for a quick post (and since I've changed all the urls) here is an update of my social networks:

My personal Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/suchithomas

My Like page: https://www.facebook.com/strangesaintsora

My personal and Gothic Tumblr: http://strange-saint.tumblr.com/

My Jrock/Visual kei Tumblr: http://the-monochrome-kiss.tumblr.com/

My Last fm account: http://www.lastfm.pt/user/sora-saint

My we<3it account:="account:" http:="http:" nbsp="nbsp" p="p" sora_saint="sora_saint" weheartit.com="weheartit.com">
My twitter nickname: @sora_saint

And basically that's it... I think I might have a Vampirefreaks account but I can't really remember my password or my nickname for that, so I guess only if you ask me really bad I'll create one...

Hope you like my blog and follow me on those other accounts

XOXO
SORA SAINT

(p.s. - this friday I'll record a video to post on youtube with my best friend, so then I'll tell you my youtube account :P)

Dear Parents...

(I know I've already made a post like this, but it was a while ago, so I thought it would be more correct if I just wrote it again, for you to know what I think about parents in general and my own)

Dear parents,

We, the gothic / alternative kids, wished you'd read this letter and face it like humans. Don't just read it and say you don't care or that all we say are childish things... We are already old enough to know what we want from our lives. We already know what path to take. We already know what our lives are about to become.
We don't need you to call us emo, baby bats, freaks... there are other people who also call us that outside our homes, and we don't really need you to glance at us by the corner of your eye and shake you shoulders while thinking you have been raising a FREAK KID... We honestly don't need you to tell us that we are your shame. We already know that by your look when we're all together, having dinner, walking on the shopping... We know you don't like us to dress so dark and weird and we know that the first thing you think when you see us with a full black outfit is 'I've raised this demon'.
We don't need to believe your god, we have our own god to believe in: OURSELVES. Because if we didn't believe in ourselves, we would be all alone out there. You don't know how many times we've tried to tell you that religion doesn't matter; that's all an institution trying to brainwash all of us, and that it changes through times... and that above all, We're  not satanic and we don't worship the devil. Because if we did that, we'd have to believe in god as well (they are arch enemies after all, they supposedly create a balance between good and evil) but we don't...
When you see us so dark, it doesn't mean we are depressed... it's only our way to express our dark creativity. If people are allowed to dress fully in white, or fully in pink, why aren't we allowed to dress fully in black? Is it because it represents mourning? Did you know that the official color for funerals in Asia is white?
And that black is usually related to strength? 
I bet you didn't...
When you forbid us to buy something or to dye our hairs on a weird color, you're just fanning our flames. These will never fade... Want to know why? Because as you struggle for us to leave "this bad life", we also struggle to move on with our ideas...
I know you have that traditional vampiric goth or victorian goth stereotype on your heads, and that is hard to distinguish between all of those styles based on black clothing but the truth is there are dozens of gothic variations, and not all of those dress fully in black. And actually, neither do us dress always in black!
Did you know that there are goths who always dress white?
Or did you know that there are goths who you'll never label as goths, because those are inner goths.
Gothic is a culture. Just like a country's culture, but in smaller scales spread around the globe. It is mainly about enjoying the dark side of life (it does not mean it has to be depressive or about the devil), such as the deepest emotions or the scariest fables. And we don't like Halloween because it might be a ceremony that is somehow connected to the devil: just like you have carnival, we have Halloween. And we like to have fun with it.
Why do we label ourselves goths? Well, as you enjoy to belong to a certain family, we also want to have one, one that accepts us as we are, one that understands the way we feel and that support us to carry on. That family we find are those goth friends you meet and blame for our awkwardness.
We're not that influenced! We have our own minds and hearts: that's why after all of those insults we are still the persons we were when they first started.

And having all of this said, I think you might have now an idea of what we have to go trough just because of you, so a little more understanding would be appreciated.

I hope you start making our lives a bit easier. We're not bad people, and beside all: WE ARE YOUR KIDS!!! and you're hurting us too much when you tell us that we are freaks.

Sincerely,
YOUR GOTHIC KIDS
love

HOW I GOT INTO THE GOTHIC CULTURE

Hi everyone!

So, I'm home today to study for my next exams but... I don't really feel like it so I stayed all day on facebook and watching VK videos...
Then I thought to myself 'well, I could do something better and post something or make a tutorial'. I looked in the mirror 'my hair looks like crap'... so I'm just going to tell you why and how I became goth (I know you can not become goth, you are goth... so sorry but I can't really say it another way....)
You guys know how fangirl I was (and still) of the GazettE and any VK bands... I really got into that style. And since my personal style has been stolen by hundreds of other girls I decided I wouldn't want to get fashionable after all of these years of being an outcast... By the way, If anyone does not know, I was one of the first nu goth girls in Portugal... then fashion took that privilege and I became one of the girls...
That time I decided I'd be a gothic lolita (but really, my wardrobe has nothing to do with a lolita so I got that dark kawaii look that many japanese girls had). I did all I could but nothing worked and since we don't have any lolita store here, I just looked like that.
I also realized I needed a new haircut, because the previous time I cut it and dyed it, after a few days the color faded and the haircut wasn't anything special... My hair was chocolate brown, red and blonde at the same time, when it was dark brown when I dyed it in BLACK!!! It shouldn't look like that at all (don't ever go to any Jean Louis David hairdresser, or it will happen to you too). And since my bangs were getting a little bigger than was supposed to, I decided that this x-tmas I should get a new haircut.
I started to listen to more Jrock bands and got into the VK style... I made a list of things I REALLY needed to buy and they were really accessible for my surprise.
I looked over a thousand VK hairstyles but they all had the same problem: too short for a girl. And I really wanted to keep looking like a girl... really.... most of the girls in the Jrock industrie look like boys or are too similar...
Anyway I got a good example of how my hair should look and showed my mum - she was terrified! She made a scandal and almost forbid me to get that haircut. I was really nervous the day before I got it...
In between all of this, I started following some gothic youtube channels (kazlovesbats and itwistedyourstitches... owww and also killnatalie) and I really got that feeling, when I heard them speaking, that we had lots in common and that I also thought like them... I got that strange feeling that somehow I belong to the gothic culture more than I should. And I realised that many people were asking me if I was a goth... which I clearly answered 'NO!'. It made me think a lot... and then I realised, by watching more people, and reading blogs that who I was was no different from those gothic girls... So I got a little dis-attached to the VK style.
Anyway, when I got into the hairdresser, I asked the lady there to show me the cataloge with the hairstyles. I liked two of them and I was really really undecided of which I wanted: one of those two or the one I brought from home...
So the lady told me 'Oh... so you like them? I know exactly what kind of haircut you're needing'.
And she made this haircut I've been showing you on the last photos.
I got really happy with it. It was the haircut I wanted for so so long!!! And I realized that effectively there was no turning back: I was already a goth inside and now also a bit outside.

Don't misunderstand me guys, I didn't stop liking the GazettE or anyother VK band because of this...in fact I was a bit doubtful on how could a goth like Jrock, but there are gothic lolitas anyway... they should like Jrock!
And why not being a little different from what's the norm? Isn't it the goth's purpose?...
So yeah... this is how I got into this life ^^
I hope you guys enjoyed reading it and if you have any doubt ask me or any of those girls I mentioned above... or even google GOTH. It isn't anything like what your parents tell you it is: no satanic things, no depressive behavior... we're just like normal persons, only with a lot more imagination and a dark taste for life.

XOXO
SORA SAINT 

Really Sad Evening

I everyone :) I have just cameback from a shower... It has been raining the whole day... It's really awful!
I was on the bus stop and the cars were just throwing water on me and my pants were all dirty T.T I mean it. First thing I did was to take a really really hot shower.
I still have a lot to think of this week: tomorrow's plans seem to be off (cuz my best friend's getting sick :( ) ; I have one german portfolio to deliver next thursday, three exams: german, literature and english...lots of work to do.
Wish me luck...
Oh now that I remember I still have that "finding my inner goth" post to write...
Just let me dry my hair and I'll post it later... Am really really tired!

Bis bald!

XOXO

SORA SAINT